A couple of Bad days...

Yes that was me, the weird lady in the grocery store with the hot pink nose and upper lip, cracked lips and half open eyes... crying.... in the grocery store. Why you ask? Because I was feeling sorry for myself, but more likely because I have had a fever, a sore throaght, a really runny nose, no sleep, a baby who has refused to nurse, a husband whose been bed ridden, kids who have been really energetic, lots of bottles to sterilize, engorged breasts to pump, an achy body, with a weird itchy rash I got from that vapor bath stuff, and I can't take any medicine. So there I stood looking longingly at Day-Quil, crying because I can't take it, because my baby (who won't nurse) can't have it.
But I am greatfull for a few things...
1. Self checkout things so when your face looks really weird and you are crying in a grocery store you don't have to make eye contact with anyone.
2. For our friends and neighbors who have brought us food all week!
3. For our friends who've provided the frozen peas, and emotional support my husband has needed!
4. My neighbor/friend who offered to watch my baby all night long. (which I didn't take her up on, because I am the "I don't need any help" kind of person, and then realize that I do later)
5. My husband insisting, then limping to pick up my son from pre school today, so that I can get a nap and sit for longer than 5 minutes.
6. The wonderful box I got in the mail today from my church in Ca. filled with kind words and generous gifts for the new baby.
7. That I have a soft comfortable bed and don't have to sleep on dirt, that would really suck.