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Friday, October 05, 2007

Living in Gratitude instead of desire...

~To be honest, knowing that my husband is gone for a month and a half, combinbed with my hormones doing something crazy due to the fact that I have been pregnant or nursing since April 2004 and have recently weaned my baby, combined with issues in my family, combined with daily life..... make (for me) a hard time, and it very easy to focus on what is "lacking" in my life. I have a natural tendency to be a pessimist, and be negative, and I hate it.

My grandparents, who were some of the only christians in my family, were the most positive people. Toward the end of my grandfather's life, I became a christian, and we had that common bond. One day I asked him how he could be so happy when he was dying of Leukimia, and had recently lost my grandma. He told me that he told himself "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." throughout the day, and he said, "all things, what else is there?" Simple, but hard for me somehow. He said, it took him a lot of practice, but eventually, happiness and faith were his nature. He was given 6 months to live after being diagnosed with Leukimia, saying that it was all through his body. He lived for a year after that, golfed up until 2 weeks before he died, and up until the day before he died, not once swayed from his faith that Jesus would heal him. He'd leave the doctor, only really absorbing the positive news, never really even hearing all the negative things they were saying. I believe that positive outlook, allowed him to have a very full life, even while dying of cancer.

I read this article about teaching yourself to focus your attention on things that make you happy. "happiness is all about the allocation of attention. Getting more pleasure out of life, and increasing happiness can be done in many ways: By savoring sensory experiences (really feeling the warmth of the sun or tasting sweetness of a strawberry), becoming more engaged in what you do (being in the moment and blocking out thoughts/feelings that are not relative to that moment), and by finding ways of making your life feel more meaningful (volunteering, meditating, reaching out to those in need)."

~I am trying to teach myself to be happy, and to appreciate all the people in life that I have relationships with, whether here or far away, instead of focusing on all that is rocky, difficult and lacking. "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." and I will focus on "whatever is pure, lovely, true...." (Philippians 4:8)

7 Comments:

Blogger Grace said...

Hey!
Kristin, would you email at
alifewithgrace@yahoo.com

Thanks, Grace

2:18 PM

 
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Kristin,

I know what you mean. I am so prone to the "blahs" right after Scott deploys because I tend to focus on all the things that will fall to me with him away. What I forget is that God is really in control, and all things are truly possible because He is. Satan capitalizies on that feeling within me to cast doubt and worry in my direction. Seeing it for what it is is half the battle for me. Thanks for sharing!

Beth

3:58 PM

 
Blogger Just Mom said...

I've been focusing too much on the negatives in my life lately. This post has given me lots to think about over the weekend (and that's a good thing). Thanks.

4:57 PM

 
Blogger Lisa H said...

I tend to have a more positive outlook on everything, but my husband travels many weekends (some "weekends" start as early as the Tuesday before)and I can relate to how you feel knowing your husband is leaving! It's not a month at a time, but still--it's difficult with small children and everything else that makes up our lives.

I just wanted to say good for you for tackling your attitude (or outlook or whatever you want to call it) head-on. I think you'll be able to see a big change. What really helps me is connecting with other people--whether it's just a quick phone call or visiting over a meal.

Also this might sound silly, but if you try to smile--even when you don't really feel like it--you'll find that you want to smile more. It just makes you happy!

5:17 PM

 
Anonymous annie said...

The fact that you are addressing this Biblically and making an effort to control your attitude/outlook shows that you are a woman of maturity and strength. I am positive that you will achieve the change you seek. And I appreciate your transparency, as I bet all of your readers have been or are now in those very same shoes.

1:37 AM

 
Blogger kddub said...

Grace, thank you for the e mail!

Beth~I can imagine that it would be more difficult knowing your husband was in possible danger, and you probably had a lack of communication, right? I do think the first couple of days are the worst!

Just mom~ maybe we can help each other!

Lisa~ I am always interested to hear how other moms cope without their husbands. Thank you for being encouraging!

Annie~ thanks for the encouragement!

7:23 AM

 
Blogger Seth Ward said...

Great post!

I needed to hear that.

4:32 PM

 

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